When my Heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the rock…….
Today reminded me that sometimes it’s not the to-do list that is overwhelming, sometimes it is the quiet tiredness inside. I almost didn’t post anything today. Not because I didn’t want to, honestly, over the past few days, I have had the best intentions. I had a whole plan. “Today, I’m writing. Today I’m showing up”. But somehow the hours just slipped away, and before i knew it, evening had crept in and I hadn’t written a single word.
ln that moment, I felt that similar frustration, that wave of utter disappointment, the quiet voice whispering, “Here we go again” Why am I like this? I asked. Sounds familiar to you, too, right? To make matters worse, I had so much on my to-do list for today, and the only thing I could get myself to do was an assignment my husband gave me to do yesterday night. All around me, it felt like I was stuck, and unfortunately, I had the flu, which made me physically tired. In my heart, I cried Lord, give me strength.Then i paused. And it hit me, maybe this issue wasn’t time. Maybe the issue wasn’t procrastination, Maybe something deeper in me was tired. Maybe….my spirit was tired
There is a cry that many believers whisper:
“Lord, I want You…but I feel drained”
You still love God, you still believe, you still want to grow, but your spirit is tired from trying to hold everything together. Life is stretching you, responsibilities here and there, and you are trying to keep calm and sane through it all. When prayer feels like a task, not a connection, worship feels distant, and reading scripture feels hard. When you are going through the motions, you feel numb spiritually; you know God is there, but you feel far
The quiet heaviness we don’t talk about enough. Spiritual tiredness is subtle. it doesn’t always show up in dramatic ways. Often, it comes as a slow dimming of strength, a heaviness that’s hard to put into word
The bible actually describes the feeling, “The spirit of a man will sustain his infirmity but a wounded spirit, Who can bear? Prov 18:14
Lately, I have been reflecting and I realized, I have been tired, not just in my body but in my Spirit. And it is no surprise because life didn’t exactly slow down to give me space to notice.
Between interpersonal challenges, career pressures, planning a wedding, becoming a wife serving in Church and managing unexpected health issues, all while trying to stay sane, drink enough water, exercise daily, my spirit gradually became worn out……..
It was not one storm, It was many little waves unnoticed, I kept functioning I kept pushing making sure I showed up no matter what and I kept telling myself “Just one more dear then you take a rest” But rest…… is not the same as restoration.
One major thing to note is that spiritual tiredness Often shows up in whispers and God understands this place more than we think, emotional weariness is not weakness, it is HUMAN..
So one might ask, Why does this inner battle happen?
You see my dear reader,
Life Stretches us
Responsibilities grow
Expectations shift
Our hearts carry more than our mouths can admit
We want to be there for people so much so
Most times without realizing it, we pour out more than we receive.
Eventually, something inside of you begins to whisper “I need HELP..” And lately……. I’ve been learning to listen . I have discovered that when Jesus withdrew from the Crowd He did that to refill, He had moments where He rested.When your Spirit begins to tire it doesn’t always shout, it whispers. It is not because of something you did wrong, it is is because of everything you’ve been carrying.
The beautiful part about this that I love is:
God does not rush tired hearts
He doesn’t shame exhausted believers
He doesn’t push you to keep performing
He simple calls to you.
Matt 11: 28 says a “Come unto ME….. and I will give you rest”
Not more task, not more pressure but pure undiluted restorative REST. Hallelujah isn’t that amazing!!!
Sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is to slow down long enough to let Him touch your heart again.
Lately, I have been very Intentional about my healing journey. Not with long dramatic prayers but honest ones. I’ve been choosing moments of stillness, allowing myself to breath, slowing down enough to hear the difference between exhaustion and emptiness.
If you’re reading this and you feel tired inside not physically but spiritually, you are not alone. Awareness is the first step to healing. And God is closer to tired hearts than we think.
I want you to know
You’re not alone
You’re not failing
You’re not strange
You are Human and you spirit is simply asking for attention.
I have been asking God to restore me and Psalm 23: 3 has been my anchor scripture. Allowing my heart to settle, letting God remind me that strength is not something I manufacture, it’s something He renews. “They that went upon the Lord shall renew their strength” Isaiah 40:31. Slowly I’ve been feeling Him bring clarity back, Joy back, balance and peace back.
This blog series is my safe space, a place to journey through these realities with honesty and grace. A place to breathe and rebuild. Watch out for the next episode, where we will talk about how life’s demands can quietly pull us away from spiritual balance. But for now…… breathe, let your heart settle, Let God begin the healing.
You are good enough
And God is not finished with you
God loves you, so do I